weddings are not always fun

i was around 11 when they married

lucky for me I was the best man
what an opportunity for a young

kid

a best man in my step brother’s wedding

I guess what does that say about him

but who cares

didn’t have a fancy bachelor party

or anything but I’m pretty sure

we looked at porn

that seems like a party to a 11 year old

anyway

there I stood

proud in my Woolworth suit

smiling but not understanding what the fuck

was going

a few party goers

6 or so including myself,

my sister

my stepbrother

and  my mother

some cake

and alcohol

years pass and still I’m still

confused

but I adapt

14 years after the wedding itself

I finally asked my mother

why she married her

husband’s son